feel sad..what i wan to say out...

i alway ask my self,why i will born be my parent son???
it is idiot question...
i like that ask because sometime i feel un fair...
when i injure or wat,my parent doesnt have any feeling or care..
but when my brother them just little sick,they so care~~~
Did i wrong born???
but im happy that i have a good friend,uncle,grandparent and teacher...
i alway make my parent proud at outside because i have a nice result in study and sport...
i already try my best to do what i can do...
if one day,i fall down already don know who can help me...i think not my parent,is my friend and grandparent...
i still remember what my parent treat me..i will remember forever and ever~~
Each my performance,u not watch...alway when go competition,i very sad when saw their parent watch their son competition...
AND when a time,what happen to my leg,u know!??
until cannot walk few week,at a night,i hungry...all ppl already sleep,i just can `tahan` the pain and slow slow jump until reach kitchen and bck to my room..each jump,i wan to drop `yan lei`...
my parent no bring me go see doctor,it just good by my self...
i know that u alway give my money for eat or what..i don want it!!!
i just want ur care,do u know???(my parent)
sometime i what happen at outside u also don know and some time reach home just knew to scold us...
when primary schul i beat a gang leader at year 6,that time i just year 4...
do u know what happen to me???
when bck schul,their gang throw me thing~~~
i don wan to suffer like that again so when form 1,im out pengawas then in gangster...
then i be like a leader,controlling form 1 that same gang with me...
but i less with gangster already...
COZ i dun wan to walk wrong road...
i will get today result all because my grandparent alway at behind support me whatever they at kedah...
that why i like silent,coz i feel im at a empty world..
that all wat i wan to say at today...T.T